I Don't Like What I See

Excellent weather today, sunny blue skies. Was hanging out in the lawn in front of the state library getting some sun with my sis. Laying down staring at the sky as the clouds swept by QV was surreal. It felt like the building was moving instead of the clouds. Maaaaaaaan... I sound like a stoner.
My dad came over 2 weeks ago on business. Saw him for a couple of days with my sis. Then on one day his business appointment got cancelled so I took him around the city while my sis was at work. My dad and me alone...in the city...after the small talk got exhausted It got kinda awkward. I dunno, I just can't talk to my dad. My sis and him get along fine, plenty to talk about. Me and him? more silence than actual conversation. I seem to mumble and slur my words when I talk to him.
Tegan and Sara's new album release date in Oz has been pushed back :(
No clue when it's coming out here...sigh...more waiting.
Mid-sem break starts tomorrow...only 1 week. Have to start attacking my assignments or else I won't have time to study for the exam on 25th Oct...sigh..more grief.

Mood: Calm...for now
Music: Walking with a ghost

It could have been a month or It could have been a year

The sun was finally out today after a week of blustery winds and rain...brrr...I reckon it's to payback the sunny days in winter. Finally updated my OS to XP from WIN 98 last weekend.
Been feeling numb for months, and it's getting worse, my mood meter has been in the dark side more and more often. Rarely does it go back to "happy" mode. Even if it does, it lasts a couple of hours at most. sigh.

Mood: Dark
Music: Tegan and Sara

I've been tired for days and days

Suicidal Polar Bear (Mutluk to his friends) wondered as he was standing at the edge of the great white surface, if he jumped would his little butterfly wings support his weight and let him soar high and free in the sky, eyes closed with his tougue hanging out of his mouth as the wind rushed through his fur or will gravity rip him from the sky only to crash on the ground of reality and crushing his spirit because polar bears were never meant to fly. As he took a flying leap off the edge, he wondered what Yuri was doing...

Caffeine + lack of sleep = a weird story. Let's see 2 assignments down, 1 assignment and 2 presentations to go next week. Been on a caffeine binge, sweet, sweet caffeine, what would I do with out you? Had a birthday about 2 weeks ago...older but none the wiser...my sis got me an mp3 player...w00t! Sup got me the Angelina Jolie book about her travels with the UN and camo shoe laces, double w00t!

Mood: beep...beep....flatline...
Music: Days and Days